Shinning

Watch the stars shine brightly in the evening sky...the one that shines brightest is the one I'm going to climb.
To the top there's no stopping me ....I'm destined to fly .....on the wings of an eagle to the top i will climb.
With fearless determination that pushes me forward.....taking me to my future ....as the biggest brightest star in the universe.
So shine i will.... as you will see me from a far ....lighting my path through the sky like a neon star.
Every success and failure makes me shine even brighter...like lightning through the sky and a loud clap of thunder.
My biggest failures have turned into my greatest success... I'm never turning back.... and never a single regret.

Honor

Don't put something back together that's not worth the glue...it's broken apart..with missing pieces to the truth.

You never cared to ask me.... I was judged and sentenced with no proof....are you scared your relationships won't with stand the truths.

Is it your husband who lies....or your dear close friend ....either way its a no win situation....is that the reason you refuse to dig in.

With knowledge comes responsibilities .... to honor your truth ....if you choose to do nothing your lack of honor will reveal the true you.

It must be horrible to sleep next to a man you think you know.....but as he sleeps soundly....your rummage through his phone.

And your friend who dis-honors you every chance that she gets ...just remember every time you walk away her knife is stuck firmly in your back.

So whats it going to be .... is there honor amongst any of you...or do you go on with your life always wondering the truth.

Tarnished.

                                                               
                                                              Tarnished

My love now tarnished with complete untruths...now holds a heart so genuine and true.
The days run into minutes turn into seconds of a life from this moment....the moments make me stronger...that move my life forward.
Ill live my life for myself....and to myself I’ll be... the very best person that I can possible be.
My success is there failure turned into their own regret...for pointing dirty fingers with hear say and threats.
Knowing it was mirroring of their own dirty past.....leaves me feeling assured it was all for the best.
Forty eight years of my past I can be proud....I have nothing to be ashamed of and nothing to hide.
So from this moment forward I will honesty say....I love every one of you but I’m staying away.
I know everything changes and people do too...but I won’t hold my breathe ....because castles made out of sand never hold up the truth.

My new life ......welcome

"Welcome to my new world....a world of beautiful lived dreams come to life .....like  the way the moon rules the tide ....I now live my life."

Let me began by introducing myself to you my reading audience ....my name is Janet I am a forty eight year old single Italian Hispanic girl from Albuquerque better know as Burque.... this is my new life....a life lived to the fullest.....completely satisfied .....always immersed in gratitude for every person, situation and life changing event that has made me who I am.... in order to bring me here to this place ....where I now live HAPPY ....this is my new life.....Welcome :)

A brief background on my past .....

(FYI......my life is lived in my present moments .....and not in my past mistakes!)

A girl who was never comfortable in her own skin: ...a string of failed relationships ...including her whole family .
Always feeling like she was never good enough, smart enough, thin enough....negatives pounded into her head by her father as a child....and then reinforced by immediate family and some!

(FYI....We may go down the road sideways .....but at least we go down the road!
Not anymore!     The only road i travel is of pure intent... I create my own roads 

                                              I am the super star in my own movie
                                              I pick the actors
                                              I choose the outcome
                                              You cant get any better then that!

"Come back to this place where my heart sings and my soul can just breathe"

Continue the read :)...... much love!